First Weigh In....

Ok so technically its the 2nd. But I mean the first after actually starting my new way of eating. I didnt post on the weekend.....mostly out of shame. I did OK but I work a graveyard shift over the weekend and it is pure torture not eating during that 8 hours. Some would say that I should eat because my schedule is just reversed right? Wrong. It would be right if I got to sleep the whole next day but with my schedule and family life that is nearly impossible. 5 hours is the max I get to sleep so Im still up eating meals during the day. Anyway, since I really only work 3 nights, I dont see the sense in doing a different eating schedule every other day. Im just going to have to get through it. I do eat fat free popcorn or cashews once in a while for energy....also fruit. I figure those points arent really going to hurt me. So, Saturday night I decided to stay home from work since I had a PAC (an award that allows me to take a day off without reprimand). Denver and I decided to rent a movie after the kids had been put to bed. I had already eaten all my points for the day but we got treats anyway....the popcorn and diet coke were "point-less" but then I ate a bag of peanut butter m&m's and who knows how many points that was....I didnt dare look. All in all I did pretty good this week and so this morning we went to weigh in and .......... I lost a whopping 3 pounds. I know that is great on some levels but inside Im just sortof undecided about how I feel. You see, Im roughly 90 pounds overweight.....to me that should mean that the first 20 or 30 pounds should come off quite easily. Apparently that is not the case with me. Im hoping that when I add exercise into the mix that the pounds will come off a little quicker initially. I really need this for my brain to wrap around the idea of eating better. I understand that slower weight loss means more permanent results but I need to see some results initially or I get really depressed about it. Anyway, here is to another good week of eating right and being healthy......I am going to get those measurements on soon, I have to find my tape measure.