Monotonous.....

Did I even spell that right? Ugh. This is how I am feeling about my workout/diet thing right now. It seems like Im spinning my wheels. In the gym out of the gym.....same foods.....different day. BORING. Plus the scale is not moving! Im so frustrated! I talked to a trainer today. We scheduled a time to check my measurements again. Its been almost a month since he measured me the first time. This should tell me if I am truly spinning my wheels or if it is actually working. I will find out Thursday night. Im going to work really hard this week on not eating anything that I shouldnt. I do pretty good most of the time but that is obviously not working for me. I guess Im going to have to be super strict about it. Im going to Vegas on Friday which means I will miss Friday's workout....... One day should be OK though.

Its a Good Day....

So today Im having a great day. Just for fun (or torture if it didnt turn out well) I decided to try on some pants that I have been saving from a skinnier time. Not exactly the thinnest but definitely thinner than I am now. I just wanted to see how close I was to getting back into those pants. VERY CLOSE......that is the discovery and I couldnt be more thrilled. In fact one of them fit just fine right now which put me through the roof with happiness. The others fit, but not as comfortably as I would like....10 more pounds though and watch out! What a good day. The best part about it is that it will mean that I can finally shop at Old Navy again and not at the fat girl stores.....if you are thin, you have no idea how exciting something like this is. To be able to walk into normal stores and not feel like you are totally out of place......I cant wait.

YAY!

So tonight is my 10th anniversary being married to Denver. We went to Olive Garden for dinner and then afterward we decided to go shopping. I'm going to Las Vegas to meet some friends of mine from when I was in the Air Force. Needless to say Im nervous since I weigh nearly 80 pounds more now than I did then. I have zero clothes to wear either. So my husband wants me to buy new clothes but Im dreading the whole process. I dont want to try on something only to have it not fit. Long story short, Im down about a size and a half. I say that because technically I could have gone one more size down but it wouldnt have been quite comfortable just yet....therefore its a size and 1/2!~ Exciting though. Im very happy about it and cant wait to keep going down. This picture is when I first started dating Denver. I weighed about 175 here which actually is when I first started to gain weight! I could handle looking like this again!

Plateau.....

I feel a little frustrated this morning. So, I know that I could always do better with my diet but Im working out pretty consistently so I feel that the occasional "snack" it OK because I dont like to completely deny myself. That being said, Im hating the fact that the scale numbers havent moved recently. As heavy as I am and as hard as I am working out, I feel that I shouldnt be hitting a plateau already. I know that I am losing inches because I can feel it in the way my clothing fits but it is still hard.

I was laughing yesterday because this book that I am following, "Hot Point Fitness" said that by now working out should be a habit for me, which it is. But then it said I could possibly be craving my workouts now as well. WHAT?! Honestly I dont think I will ever CRAVE working out. Now, I do feel like crap both mentally and physically if I miss a workout, this is true but to say I physically crave going to the gym is just hilarious. I suppose there are people like that but I dont think it will ever be me. Every night when I go to bed and set the alarm for the crack of dawn I grumble about it and excuses to not go start running through my head. I am proud of myself though for continuing to go despite my inner resistance to it. Maybe one day I will be addicted to exercise. Never say never right? For now, I just want to be skinny again. Better than skinny, Id like to be in shape and healthy. I just wish my body would let it happen instead of clinging to this fat like a lifeline! AH!

Still here.....

So I have had a busy week with visitors and guests. Even though I havent posted much, I am still going to the gym every day like a good little girl. I did pretty good resisting some treats over this past week and still indulged in a little bit here and there. Overall the numbers on the scale havent changed this week but I feel a difference in my clothes. I guess that means it is still working!

Slowly but Surely.....

Ive lost 2.3 pounds since I weighed last. In fact yesterday the scale said 239.4 and I was so EXCITED because I had broken into the 230's. I havent been in the 230's since about 4 years ago. It seems sad to be excited to weigh 230 something pounds and believe me, I still feel like a grotesquely overweight slob, but that being said, it is still nice to know that I am in a different set of 10's. Im going to work extra hard this month to take off another 10 pounds so I can be in the 220's! Of course I had to ruin my excitement this morning and get on the scale again. Bad girl. It was 240.3..... but thats close enough to blame it on the scale position right?

My Measurements....

So Monday I got weighed and measured by a trainer at 24 fitness. It was embarrassing of course but Im glad I got it over with. Somewhere between the gym and home I lost my copy of them though. I promise that isnt a convenient coincidence. I really lost them. But I do remember my body fat percentage....which is HORRIBLE! 40%! OMG I feel so fat! Anyway, at least now I will be able to see each month if that number is coming down or not....it has to come down. Horrible!

New Scale.....

So, Ive struggled and struggled with a decision but have finally made it. Im not going to go to Weight Watchers anymore. Here's the thing. It cost's $12 per week which is.....$48 per month. I really dont get much out of the meetings themselves, I really just do it for the weigh in's. It's the pressure of getting on the scale in front of someone. Accountability. So, anyway, I really want to take these supplements that I took before when I was training at the gym in Chandler. They seemed to work pretty good and so I would like to take them again. Im sure you've heard of Apex Fitness products before. Well, I cant justify the cost of those every month AND the WW's.....since I feel really good and strong and I know that Im on a roll with the diet part (ie, I understand the portions I need, points I need, etc....) I went ahead and bought a new scale....a digital one so I can get accurate readings and Im going to try this on my own for a while with the Hot Point Fitness book and the supplements. Scary. Oh, and I'm going to do weekly weigh in's in front of Denver for the accountability part. Not to mention that every 21 days I get re-weighed at my gym in front of the trainers there.....thats accountability right?

I have to say that digital scales are crazy though. Depending on where I put it on the floor in my bathroom it gives me a different reading.....Guess where I ended up putting it? On the part of the floor that gives me the lowest reading.....OF COURSE! HA!

New Weigh In.....

So I weighed in today. 242. Again not FABULOUS results but good results nonetheless. I really should be happy to lose just a pound or 2 a week because it is supposed to mean more permanent weight loss right? I still cant get the 30 pounds my husband has lost out of my head. After my workout yesterday, I met with a trainer to schedule an appointment to take my measurements. and body fat. That is on Monday. So I will post those when I get them. Unfortunately I didnt do that when I started because Im sure they are less now than they were in January. Oh well, I will just go from here!