OUCH.....my legs really hurt!

Frustrated.

So, yesterday I realized that my husband....who started this journey with me at the same time....has now caught up to me in weight. Where Ive only managed to lose 13 pounds, he has managed to lose 30. How is that fair? Seriously it makes me sick. Of all the things, physically, that women have to suffer with you'd think that God would at least make one thing easy on us.... losing weight. Am I right? I just feel like it shouldnt be this difficult. I shouldnt have to work SO hard for something. Granted, I understand that if you eat like a pig and dont exercise then you will get fat.....pretty quickly.....but on the opposite end, if you eat healthy and exercise everyday, then you should lose weight just as quickly. Its only fair! Ok, Im done venting.....

I made it to the gym again this morning and after the weight training, I started on my cardio but 10 minutes into, I had to leave because I thought I was going to throw up. I guess Im getting sick which would only make sense since all 3 of my kids have been sick. Its either the flu or Im pregnant and if it is the latter, I think I will crawl in a hole and disappear forever.....Im kidding, but not really. Im praying its the flu.

Early Morning Workout....

This morning I went to the gym with new determination. I am going to do this Hot Point workout 3x a week if it kills me. I figured the best thing to do would be to go after work. The good thing about going this early, is that there only about 5 other people there. This meant getting to the gym around 4:30 am. The bad thing is that Im not sure that I feel like I worked out today since I came home and slept for 6 hours.....it feels strange. Well, Im glad I did it though. I felt so good today. Like I could just keep going. I dont know. I can really feel the healthy person inside of me wanting to break out. It is exciting to feel so motivated. I didnt think I would ever get to this place. Even when I mess up and eat too much, I just start over the next day without a thought. Before, I would just give up. So, I think Ive crossed a good bridge. I feel like I will start seeing good results soon. I didnt weigh in at Weight Watchers last week and I was supposed to go today but I think Im going to change my day to Friday. I will have a new weight report by then. I did weigh myself the other morning here in my house and it looks like I might be down another 3 pounds.....I hope!

2 days now....

So today is the 2nd day in a row that Ive made it to the gym early! Hopefully I can keep it up. Yesterday I did the first day of the Hot Point Fitness. I worked my legs mostly but did a couple of arm exercises too. It felt pretty good. I was really self concious at first because the gym is packed at that time in the morning. But, after a few minutes, I just tuned it out and did the workout. Im excited to start seeing results from this. Today I just did the treadmill. Basically I will be doing the Hot Point weight training 3 days a week with cardio but then on the "off" days, I will still go in and do cardio. That way Im doing cardio 5 days a week and weights 3 days. I hope it works. Still doing pretty good with the nutrition part. Although Easter candy is out now and I have a serious addiction to Cadbury Mini Eggs......HELP.

Nervous....

Well, Im feeling a bit nervous right now. This week hasnt been that great. Ive only made it to the gym 2 times. The 3rd time would have been Thursday but we had a horrible morning here. It had snowed during the night which of course I didnt realize until that morning so we were already 15 minutes behind due to the fact that I would have to scrape the windows. Then there is the added fact that whenever it snows, traffic is a compelte mess and you can add another 20 minutes just trying to get down the hill to Ian's school. Anyway, I started racing and rushing the kids and started the car ahead of time to get it warmed up at least. Then I couldnt find the ice scraper so Im outside in 7 inches of snow scraping the car with a baby wipes case. The wind was blowing all the snow off the garage roof so it felt like I was standing in a blizzard. I get in the warm car (already 20 minutes late leaving now) and start to back up and my car runs out of gas in my driveway. Now I have to start over scraping Denver's car........and so the story goes. Obviously no time for the gym because I have to be back at 9:30 to watch my nephew. Missing a day at the gym has really thrown me off and I have had to really resist eating badly. As you can see from the post above, Ive already done badly this week so I am continuing to struggle. I am finding that I am sneaking bites of the kids food, treats, etc. so much that Im sure Ive gained a pound or two this week. Im dreading the weigh in on Monday......plus my hubby and I are supposed to go to lunch and a movie tomorrow for a late Valentines Day celebration. Mexican food. Never good. Well, I will continue to struggle and resist and hopefully after Monday, I will begin again with stronger motivation. I start the Hot Point Fitness regimen next week too so hopefully that will make a big difference.

Sugar Cookies and Cream Puffs....

Ok, Im feeling better this morning having just returned from the gym. I worked out extra hard today because last night I was a total pig. I actually considered throwing up over it....just for a minute though. I went to a church function to put together 72 hours kits. It sounded pretty safe but unfortunately, a lot of women in my church BAKE! So to my disappointment, the table was full of Valentine goodies 2 of which were my big weaknesses....Sugar cookies & Cream Puffs. AGH!!! I thought I'll just have one right? One and be done....thats the idea. Well, anyway, Im not giving full disclosure about the quantity that found its way to my mouth. Lets just say that Im an addict and apparently I cant have even one. Ridiculous. On a good note though, someone that I havent seen in a few weeks came up to me and said I looked like I had lost a bunch of weight! THANK YOU.....as I shove another cookie in my fat mouth.

Weekly weigh in......

Ok, so Im not too happy about today's weigh in. Granted I didnt gain any weight which is always a plus but I only lost one stinkin pound. Of course the lady at WW says "oh honey that is great! One more pound less to lose!" Whatever. I love that Denver goes with me and is doing the WW thing with me but weigh ins suck because he always loses 2 to 3 times the weight that I do. He is already about to catch me in weight and soon will weigh less than me. He loses to 3 to 4 pounds every week. I hate men. It is always so easy for them. It isnt fair.

Ok, enough pouting. I am going to implement a new "program"...... my sis in law gave me a book called "Hot Point Fitness". This guy is a trainer to many professional athletes, hollywood types, etc. The book is not a "diet" at all. In fact other than giving you a list of different types of proteins, carbs, etc...and their calorie counts, the only eating advice is about portion control and calorie intake. It is all very general information. The point of the book is to incorporate "total fitness" and to really get your metabolism "cooking". By combining weight training, aerobic workout, and good eating it is supposed to transform your body quickly. Alisa swears by it. Also it gives you detailed workout plans for those (like me) who have no clue what to do with weights. Anyway, Im going to do it. I have this vision of me being really fit and it excites me. I know I can do it. Im leaving all of my negative thoughts about my weigh in today on this blog and Im not going to think about it again.

So much for that....

Well, not a good workout today. It is snowing like mad outside and so by the time I dropped the kids off for school.....late, due to the snow.....and got to the gym, I only had 15 minutes to work out. Oh well, at least I still went and kept the habit up because what takes a dozen times to make a habit only takes once to break it right? So, for the month of January, I lost nearly 11 pounds. Its great! I had hoped for a bit more, but I am happy with what I did and know that if I continue, I will reach my goal. I wanted to be at 200 pounds by my birthday in September. I would have to lose an average of 5-8 pounds per month to do that and I am feeling optimistic that it will happen......

Another weigh in......

another 2.6 pounds. Slow and steady wins the race right? Im off to the gym......