YES!!!

Well, I have to say since the last time I posted (8 days ago) that I havent been really motivated. I've stuck with the program but only barely. Everyday I have struggled with giving up and shoving platefuls of mexican food, smothered in sour cream, into my mouth and then finishing it up with a dozen Krispy Kreme doughnuts..... but, I didnt do it. I went the gym....ate my protein and veggies and kept those hideous thoughts to myself. I wonder sometimes if I am the only person who struggles this way. You here all kinds of success stories from various women...and I only include women because men seem to have it easy when it comes to weight loss... but, I think sometimes that I am the only one out there that struggles with these thoughts of eating myself to death. I know that isnt true of course

So anyway.....I decided this past Saturday, after staying the same weight for over a week, that I was going to continue doing the protein/veggie thing for one more week. If by this Saturday I hadnt lost anymore, then I was going to go back to previous eating plan. Yesterday I was so un-motivated that during my workout, I decided I wouldnt workout another day this week. I was just going to quit until next Monday... When I woke up this morning I decided I would weight myself just to see if anything had changed, even though I wasnt going to weigh until Saturday. Im so glad I did because I have lost 3 more pounds since last Saturday!!! What a relief and it has given me renewed motivation to continue....its amazing what a little weight loss can do for your psyche! This puts me at 228....I havent been below 230 for 5 years. Im so excited!

A Month Later.....

It has been a month since I last posted. Things have continued to go well. My knees have been killing me and so I made an appointment with an Orthopedic Doctor. He took xrays and everything looks fine! Thanks heavens...knee problems are the last thing I need. Basically I need to strengthen my ham strings and core and also stretch the ham strings really well...this will help alleviate the knee pain. I have a bone scan scheduled for the 27th to check out the possible stress fracture however, I feel good about it as it has not bothered me much lately.

Weight loss has been slower than desired...what else is new. It is going down though...slowly, but surely. That is all I can ask for I guess. Im almost into my 220's (that still sounds awful) and I havent been there since after Ian was born. He's 9 now if that gives you an idea of how long I have been struggling with my weight. I ran 3 miles the other night and am now getting into a structured half marathon training program. Its only 4 months away!! Im so nervous.

My self observation this week is that my boobs now stick out farther than my stomache! I know, TMI right? But, seriously. I looked down this morning and only saw chest...YAY. Very exciting stuff....This has been such hard work, if I ever gain it back then I give you permission to kick me. Hard.